A Farewell to a Friend Options

[n5p29]

2015, please stop taking nice people lives. D;
this is so sudden, I really got no words. Kicho is an unforgettable member for us NLS. like the rest of NLS (and Mystique) members, my condolence to her. may she rest in peace. also stay strong MARS.

[nikitazero678]

I want to express my condolences from my deepest heart to one of our comrades, Kicho.

May God absolves her past mistakes, be it light or heavy, and gives her peace and serenity in the afterlife.

[__CrUsHeR]

Very sad... I thought that I would only see this kind of romance in classical literature, was wrong...

I sincerely wish comfort and peace to all of you; my condolences.

[GDIZOCOM]

My condolences and may she rest in peace.

[wb21]

I haven't posted lately here in the forums, but this is one tragic surprise.
My thoughts and condolences go out to her loved ones.

[Nemanja]

Truly shocking.My condolences to her family and friends.May her soul rest in peace.

[(USA)Bruce]

Hello everyone

Today is the day I have to announce some sad news. A forum member you may know as Kicho passed away to breast cancer. She died peacefully not so long ago at the Norfolk & Norwich University Hospital after battling a Grade 3 cancer which could've been treated and possibly given her many years to live. She was scheduled to have a double mastectomy but her life saving operation was cancelled because the hospital budget was cut and she was effectively left on her own. I, as her designated next-of-kin, her closest friend, stayed with her until she took her last breath.

Some of you may know her as Diao, she came from China to Britain in 2008 and she had met me, her friend, Serena during school. She enjoyed playing various games, such as Command & Conquer, Go or playing the occasional Badminton, to which she always bested me at. She (and I) used to work for the National Health Service as care workers, a job we greatly enjoyed because we knew it was for the benefit of others.

She was the most kindest, selfless person I ever had the joy of meeting. She was the kind of person who would've done anything for anyone. She never hated or judged anyone despite her background, she was the only one who could only care for others, no matter what. She helped me greatly, so much that I absorbed her personality, her kindness and her passion and I cherish that.

I have chosen to preserve her accounts, and if you'll let me, allow me to be apart of this community.

愿她安息!

Greetings Serena, I for one still cannot belive she is gone.For such grave news to appear out of a sudden surely took me off guard.Before I start I'd like to thank you immensely for taking the time and consideration to letting us know.It means alot for the consideration.I dont think theres a reason for us to not accept a new member but Im unsure about continuing her account...Seems abit wrong if you ask me.
Extra node that I'll add in: I might write a strongly worded letter to the hospital due to this being a budget cut to a preventable end.The very thought is infuriating! WE'RE IN 2015 GODDAMIT!
Anywhom,

I knew Kicho even before I was tester, or even part of the community.We played shockwave back in the day and had a blast, then we eventually moved to TF2 among other games and got to know each other more.She did mention her real name once but probably due to my bad memmory with names Kicho stuck with me instead.Such a kind playfull cheerfull she was,
Im still mourning the loss of such a good friend, she had been a secret bearer to me.Someone who I had shared some of my deepest sorrows,regrets and pains with and recived nothing but understanding and a warm kindness.To be fair I never asked for much of her personnel details, like I dont even know what she looked like.But I guess the masks/nicknames we had molded made it easier to speak.I knew she was a medical worker and she was ill, she mentioned it once I think but not what it was exactly.Funny how we never had the chance to actually talk about our proffesions among all the chats we had here and there.

Before my trip to the UK to visit my snowflake I probably nagged her with questions and laws about the UK more then I nagged Mars about the lore, and thats saying something.She never second guessed me.Still as I write this I cannot get myself to beliving shes really gone
She was always willing to help and never backed down from a game nor did she surrender.So I belive she was a fighter till the end, atleast in my mind shes one to go down kicking!
We lost that one agaisnt her team and we lost hard me and Knjaz.He said something like: "Ooh free conscripts" as our base fell.The memory of a 3v3 game we had is still in my head, the replay should be around here too...

Kicho,Diao you have taught me many things.Not just simple facts but shown me that there is still people who are willing to listen.Someone to understand,
Where ever you maybe, where ever you may go
Know that You will be in our hearts and especially mine, jokes aside Im somebody who suffers deeply from paranoia and have a very hard time opening up to others.Your one of the few in my life that I did.
For that know that you will never be forgotten
A true friend that will forever be missed.The lack of her pressence will surely be felt by me.
One day I hoped to return to the UK for...reasons I will not state here,but I hope when that day comes I will visit her and pay my respects in person with greater depth.

Thank you, Serena.

Diao was and will always be the love of my life. In the all too brief, but infinitely precious time that we had, she has enchanted my heart and revealed to me that it contained a potential for love, kindness, tenderness, passion and humanity that I never thought existed during the darker periods of my past, in which an old, terrible, bygone version of myself outright denied those qualities in me. She has made every day a worthy one through her wonderful being, her golden heart and her beautiful mind. We trusted each other like we never thought we could trust another human being - and yet, we did. There was never a time where we did not understand, not stand by each other and there was no demon we could not vanquish, aside from the one that, tragically, took us away from each other all too early.

We had great plans for the future. Diao wanted to move to Germany, to live with me, and continue her work as a carer for the elderly. We even wanted to marry and make our proposal official for everyone to see by means of a ROTR stream, where we wanted to carry out a light-hearted 'dispute' between China and the ECA, before she would ask me if I wanted to become her husband. I knew back then, I know now, and I will always know that my answer would always be the same, for I said -yes- to Diao, my darling, my Qingren as I called her, every day. We wanted to have children, have our own little family, and grow old together - always warm, secure and happy by each other's side, never to feel fear, despair or loneliness.

Now, my Qingren is eternal. We both believed, without a doubt, that there has to be more to existence than what can be defined in the terms of science. All energy can change, transform or be transferred - but it cannot vanish into nothing, and even when the electrochemical computer that is our brain inside the biomechanical machine that is our body ceases to exist, our self has to remain in some unknown state of existence that will always remain inscrutable from the confines of the physical reality. It is therefore my belief and Serena's belief that our dear Diao is now one with everything and that one day, we will be there with her as well, along with all the people we've ever loved and lost.

Until that day, far, far into the future, we will stand by each other as the loyal, trusting friends that we too became. We know that Diao would want us to look after each other, to live a good life, so that we will have a lot to tell her. We have our peace, our closure - and we are safe in the knowledge that our Qingren is now at peace and free from all pain of this cold, uncaring world, which she managed to make just a little warmer and brighter. I will remain true to her, my beloved wife, and continue to honour her, for all times.

Wo jiang yongyuan ai ni, wo de airen.

Cherish her memmory man, I- my self was just a friend of hers.Not sure where I was in her ranking but she was high up the chart in mine,for this the shadow of grief is still apon me.
Funny how she had withheld who she was with for quite some time, or that she was even with someone...Till that funny day when a friend had wished me to put in a good word for him, that was when I had learned and told my friend to back off heh....Before I had never guessed you two but when she told me It felt really in place, the gears fit perfectly if you know what I mean....
I had had plans on joining you for the wedding, I was trying to pull the ribbion from her lips and unravel when you'll be popping the question.But she was good with evading the answer x)
Still I counted days till the day would come, I saw in you two what I saw in my and my snowflake.Thus this cute caring resemblence of unity and completing each other was always famillar to me aaaand maybe its because I love (perhaps cheesy) happy endings being a fresh harbor for happy starts
Shes in a better place now.

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can take away.Thats something my snowflake told me when she had lost her great grandmother,
She will never leave you,Nor should you leave her...

I know she was chineese and not japanese but this was the best I could find to express how I feel


For Whom the Bell Tolls,I was going to quote it but I found the TF2 heavy reading it...She would've liked this very much.
The world seems lesser without her to me already

This post has been edited by (USA)Bruce: 6 Mar 2015, 19:39

[GeneralCamo]

I log on today, see this thread, I think it is some kind of small joke or some thing about something else.

I was wrong. Very, very wrong.

I knew Diao for a while, since I started here. But we did not start talking until this past year. She helped immensely in my Patch I was making. We bounced ideas, and collaborated a lot. Eventually the conversations went from the patch, to what was going on the world, and even our personal life. We even played a few games of TF2 together, and she even offered me the opportunity to play the co-op game mode known as Mann vs. Machine with her partner, who you all know as MARS.

Later on actually she told me of her impending wedding, and many of the plans. I knew it was going to be in two parts, online and offline. She invited me as an honored guest to both. I respectably declined the later, due to my age and financial situation, but I accepted the former. I was touched that she invited me to go to a large event in her life.

We talked about other things as well, and collaborated at times on another project which some of you will soon know hopefully. But.. that was the last big conversation we had actually.

She obviously never complained about her cancer, as I never knew about it. She always seemed so happy and open to talk. She never once complained (well.. she did, but not about the cancer). It was pleasing to talk to her though, and I wish I had the opportunity to talk to her more as well. This really hurts me. Really, really does. I have more to say, but I am struggling to type this. If I have the heart, I will finish this later.

[TimeBurner]

I'm from the bottom of my heart felt sorry for the loss.This is indeed a very unexpected moment.I know much nothing of her except of being an RotR player.May she rest in peace and a sincere condolence to Mars and to all related to her.

[Gracia]

I thank each and every one of you for the sincere condolences, it means a lot to me and so many other people. I myself have now opened up a new account in the hopes that I may be a part of this community.

谢谢 - 愿她安息!

[MARS]

My gratitude goes out to all the people who have expressed their sincere condolences as well as their support for us and Diao's loved ones. It is greatly comforting to know that she will now be remembered by so many.

I also want to take this opportunity to officially welcome you, Serena/Jie, to the SWR forums. Diao liked this place very much and she filled it with life. I know that you can have a place in our community too and I promise you, with all my heart, that I will always be your friend.

[Maelstrom]

May she rest in peace.
And my most sincere condolences to her family and friends.

[Dangerman]

Sorry for the late reply but I give my condolences to Serena and Marc and their relatives and friends, RIP .

[X1Destroy]

I've seen this news yesterday but had problems with posting so I couldn't type back then. Sorry for that.

My condolences to her family and friends. May she rest in peace.

[Rohan]

I read this just now and I must say I am shocked. I don't want to say much cause I might cry.

May Your Soul Rest In Peace.

[HMS Warspite]

Alas, poor Kichō, even though she only told me about Warriors games of Koei, I wanted to say that I knew her...

Rest in peace, Kichō.
May you see and reside with the Creator in heaven above, and never be thrown into the fires of perdition, or be held back into the pit of purgatory.
May you rest in peace.

Damn you, emperor of all maladies. May you burn into the fires of perdition, and be frozen into the ninth ring of hell, just beneath Satan (who I believe is NOT the chief demon, but rather, Lucifer), and never go any higher.

This post has been edited by Madotsuki: 9 Mar 2015, 15:31

[Admiral FCS]

卧槽。。。这么突然就没了。。。

逝者安息，有朝一日在天堂再见。

[Imperium]

As a new member here I admit I did not know this person, but I do know that Mars, and everyone else in this community, is wonderful and supportive, and I cannot imagine the pain and sadness that this must bring.

I am an optimist, I would prefer to help people if and when I can, I try to see the world with a lens of hope and happiness, but death, the end, mortality, very little can make that okay. I cannot speak to losing someone that I would consider a partner, but I know that when I even consider the thought of losing family, how terrible a wound that would carve into my heart.

My sincere and heartfelt condolences to everyone involved. Posts like this remind me, remind us all, how many lives we touch in our too-short days. The evidence is plain to see in this case that this person healed many souls and will be remembered by many more. When our days are done, this is the best we could possibly hope to achieve in this life.

To Mars, who has been supportive constructive and incredibly helpful in the scant days that I have known the man, I say this: live on, when your heart is ready, learn to love again, know that none of this was your fault, and that no matter what happens, all she wants for you right now is to be happy.

Somewhere, somehow, I think that you will meet again. That's my absurd hope.